Hello

Hello back from eating "dinner". My dinner is from 7 - 9.30. The food I ate during that time is 1 bottle of Pepsi , 1 packet of chips , 1 bottle of cold water , small plate of nasi lemak , 1 otah & 3 chicken wings. But don't know why its not filling. Maybe the gas in the Pepsi made me bloated then make me eat lesser. Then now hungry. I have yet done a single shit for SocialStudies. And POA have not been done yet. Sibei sian ah. Hopefully I can finish it before 11pm. Then I can sleep early. Tired ah. Today never catch hair so had to go for POA but Shaheeda didn't go school so had 1hour of free period doing nothing. Pehpeh never zip his pants during History. Haha free disgusting show? He open coffee shop, only sell "milk" and "lemon tea" ............ Maths no homework and Physics is damn fun. I don't know why but I like Physics. Haha. Ok going to do homework now. The thoughts of doing homework and the amount of work undone makes me sleepy. :) BYE

Heeeellooooo. Back to posting. Just got back from tuition. Today we did QA for Chemistry . Actually it was damn difficult but now its much easier . Haha. Tomorrow maybe got spot check for hair and I confirm get catch one. But I don't feel like cutting my hair today. Cos I'm damn lazy. But tomorrow got PE. And I don't want to miss PE. Don't know la. Going to bathe and do Emath already. BYe

TIRED

Nothing much happened lately. I'm kind of addicted to the idea of going to school late. You know , " Better late than never". Today woke up at 5am despite the fact that I slept at 1.20am. Went to Whitesands and waited for Mac to open. Bought Mac and took train till Dover. Ate and slept on the train. Reached NUH and blablabla. I think I made someone fail her exam or made her lose a few marks. Cos she sort of "tickled" me when she was "Examining" my shoulder. Damn sensitive and I squatted and laughed. __ right. She was shocked and so was the doctor. But I managed to not laugh until she was out of the room. Of course I did say sorry. But I still think I was damn bastard. Sian bodoh. Then train-ed back all the way to Pasir Ris and finally reached home at 1.30. Slept from 2 to 6.30 and ate and gamed and slacked and blabladidadida. There's tuition tomorrow. Don't know if I'm going alone or what. Cos Yankai always sleep until very late. SIbei sian ah. School on Monday. -.-.-.-.-.-.-.- Bye

Its just another day in school. Nothing much happened. But during AMATHS , Ms Heng was absent so the MrTan took over. I stood up, went to change a chair and he came from my back and grabbed me.. Cos I was pushing the chair around .. Playing a fool but he had no reason or whatsoever to grab my arm. I turned back and said " Oi what you want. FUCK YOU LA CHEEBYE". Turned around and continued walking to my table. He then pulled me and asked " WHAT YOU SAY TO ME" I said " Fuck you, you are nothing to me." I didn't give a fuck . He had no choice but to forget the matter for now. I have no idea if he's gonna go complain or bitchtalk to anyone, but I know I was not thinking and I just did what I thought was right at that moment. When I settled down, everyone was like looking at me... First time I'm being soooo rude to a teacher. I believed everyone didn't expect that from me, not even me. But I'm still not apologetic. So fuckcare him. :) Heard someone say that I shouldn't have done that. The teacher so old already. Later he heartattack how? Well, If he's really weak-hearted, he shouldn't have grabbed me and pulled for nothing . :) Bye

Hi I'm back to blog. Nothing much actually but I'm more cheerful now. Got reasons but don't think it affects much. (: . Have been hitting my own shinbone with a paper+scotchtape(quite hard) until very red and numb. The feeling is quite good and there's no blueblack at my shin area. But the weird thing is that alot of blueblacks have been appearing around my knee area. But I'm pretty sure I didn't hurt my knee. Its painful so its not a "pinch" .. :P Nothing much to post actually. Just wanna type something and post it. Cos my blog's pretty much dead by now. Exams coming soon. Gotta study alot and play lesser. I don't know why but I feel a sense of achievement in my study attitude. I've been more positive doing science and Emaths. Maybe the tuition helped me gained back my confidence? Hopefully I can get a L1R4 grade of 15 or below. It would be the greatest gift of my life (: bye

Back from O's MT Listening . Okok but kept changing answers. Because I'm not confident of my answers, kept thinking and "Eh, should be the other answer.". Stopped thinking too much already, cos I will turn emo everytime I think of it. But I gain new experiences on how to handle it better. Guess its both a loss and a gain. Recently I became quite emo, thought through it and shall not emo :) . GAY! Fuck tard , cunt face . Lol! That is the real me. Spouting nonsense every time I open my mouth to speak. Nabeh Cheebye, Fuckshit. Haha, I guess I'm back to normal. Whenever I'm getting angry, I will put my head on my table and sleep. Sleeping away my worries and anger. Currently only Panzi knows my link and afew people. Don't know if I should tell people. Maybe they will say I'm gay posting such emo stuffs or whatever shit. Later gonna go Gelare to eat ice-cream at half price. Cos its half price for the waffle every Tuesday. Bye

Helllo , Just got back from central. Had a short chat with mum. Felt better already. I don't know why I'm changing for everyone. Since I've tried and still gets nothing, I should not change for the sake of them. Being myself is what that makes me special. If I be the person they want me to be, then I'm just a slave. :D
Just gonna ignore a few people in school. Bye

I'm doing everything I can to get out of your life. You live your perfect life while I watch by the side. Sorry I intruded your privacy but I didn't do it on purpose. Actually I didn't know asking was intruding your privacy. But I respect you and shall disturb you no more. From today on, I shall emo till elmo dies. :(

____________ There goes everything :)

Didn't attend school today. Mum sayed I was hiding from the world. Am I? Well I just know I lied about the headache that gave me the permission to say home and sleep. I was relieved that I didn't had to go to school. But I missed out on Maths and POA. So maybe I really am hiding from the world. Cos I didn't want my classmates to ask "Eh, why you yesterday never go do pullup".. So went to Farfar with godmother and mother to see sinseh. Took MC and went to eat prawn mee. Blabla and home. So I found out that Maths tutorial was cancelled. -.- I didn't want to go school was cos I didn't want to attend tutorial and POA. So I sleep for nothing. Slacked the whole day. People say look into the mirror and say You're good looking and you will be brimming with confidence and look better. I remembered trying it once quite some time ago. I don't think it changed anything. So maybe to certain people it will have effect but to me, nothing happened. Heaven's decision maybe? To let me stay ugly forever.... Tomorrow going for job's briefing. Have to wake up early in the morning. Borrriiiiinnnggg...
You makes me forget alot of things. But when you ignore me, I really feel very empty. So I have to do other things to fill up the emptiness feeling. I have no courage to ask for anything. Maybe I damn humji... I know I wanna ask but no self-confidence.. Argh. Bye

Just got home from school earlier. Cos I skipped one station for NAPFA and that means I will fail even if I got 5 for other stations. What really got me so sad was I left the pullup bar to hide(Yes, I'm a coward) and when I returned to the same spot, they had all left for ShutterRun and they have all taken their bags with them leaving mine open to thieves. I was damn sad but I expected it. The reason why I didn't want to do pullups infront of the whole class is because I have offended many of them in the past. And when I tried to pullup when I was alone, I did 4. Which is more then my usual. I was guilty of making them embarassed and insulting them. So I "mei lian" face them. I'm afraid of all the criticism they were gonna make. Maybe that' karma. But maybe I was thinking too much. True friends would look for their friends and encourage them to do something they fear. Not leave them behind and let them get all alone and sad. True friends are suppose to go through thick and thin with us and not leave them because of trival matters which they quarrel about. And apparently I have no real friends because they don't do any of these for me. I helped them when they needed help, I would take their bags for them when they need to go somewhere. I would console them when they are down. Although I do joke about them, I don't mean harm. Maybe my words hurt them and I'm not wary of that. Today is the first day and I failed. I said I was gonna keep my mouth shut and I didn't do it. Maybe after today, I may never speak in school again. I might get hated and all but I am doing it because everyone hate me when I speak. But if they hate me even if I don't speak, then the problem lies within them. I'm gonna be emo and all, and I don't wanna care a thing my classmates say. Because I'm hurt deep in my heart already. What's done is done. And I have witness how important I am to my friends. Thanks for nothing everyone. Lastly, I wanna APOLOGISE TO ALL THOSE WHOM I'VE INSULTED OR MAKE THEM ANGRY AND SORRY FOR BEING SUCH A JERK. I ASSURE YOU, YOU WON'T NOTICE ME IN SCHOOL ANYMORE. SORRY
These videos below are what I'm going through now. Smile in my sleep because that's when I dream of good things that will never happen in my life. And Karma is what I'm experiencing now. I'm getting what I deserved. And I'm giving up hopes of finding a true friend.

3 posts in a day. Record-breaker =x..
It hurt to love someone and not be loved in return,
But what is more painful is to never have the courage to let the person know how you feel. From Iznap Jie's blog Lol.
This is how I feel every single time I have a crush on someone better looking then me, and does eveything better than me. I have no confidence thats why I don't think I can succeed in a relationship at this stage.


You're my Heroine. Every pill I take from you is like a wakeup call that tells me not to dream anymore. Cos most of the time, dreams don't come true

I'm feeling damn down right now... Maybe I know why but I just don't wanna admit. Seriously. Maybe if I change to a quieter person, no one would recognise me anymore. Maybe I will keep everything to myself and not blabber everything like what I am now. Maybe I will commit suicide because I can take the stress anymore. Only then will millions recognise me because I will burn myself alive and suffer alone. I don't wanna feel this way, but people just ignore me like I am a piece of shit. Maybe I should be emo. Shall refrain from talking much.

I've never had this feeling since .... a few years back when i was really feeling how i'm feeling now. The thoughts of accompanying .. to somewhere hinders me every now and then. But I should know where I stand exactly. Last I suppose would be kind enough. Cos I am damn fucking pessimistic about myself. Wonder who would give a damn to what I care or think. Sometimes I really question myself, "Am I important to anyone?" Well, not my parents of cos. Maybe they do care? But they are with me all the time, so the feeling fades. But the fact that no one would take the first step to approach me for anything except for money. Cos they have other people to confide in. I stand in no one's heart. I really think I have changed a whole lot compared to the "Eamon" I was in Sec1. Listening to emo song and waiting. If waiting endlessly is what I'm suppose to do. I would be glad to do it. But when I feel like there's a glimmer of hope, I really wanna try to go for it. But I know there wouldn't be any outcome cos I wouldn't dare to make the approach. Self-inflicted pain may sometimes feel good when I'm down and no one really knows it cos they don't ask me or take a second look at my fucked up face or listen to my cheebye voice. -.- Maybe I will learn to be humble and crawl while everyone runs along. Hopefully this will help me gain back some confidence I once had.

Hi people of the Earth. I doubt anyone will read my blog. So blog for fuck. Anyways, morning bathed and went to school. Called Rimes before leaving home , she still sleeping 0.o! Then had CH, fucked up.. POA worst... Maths was okok.. Recess and then Physics. Mrs Oon almost gone bonkers =x. Luckily me and Keith sit together quiet one . Then English Keith say the extra teacher not bad . LOL, I think he pajiao .. He also agree. Tomorrow's lesson quite boring but whattheheck.
Now trying to call radio again. -.- :D

Hey dudes and babes, posting time. I've been trying to turn on my computer for the past 1/2hour. Gotta change a new computer soon :D 4.30 had tuition and used it to finish Emaths homework. Lol Now very tired ah. The thought of schooling tomorrow make me tired. Just now I called the radio to chat.. So fun..! Shiok ah! ByTheWay, I've not watched movies for the past 1month or so? Wanna catch GetSmart, HellBoy2, YouDon'tMessWithTheZohan, TheBoyGirlThing, and alot alot alot sia! Walao, I want go to gym! I wana get out of this house .. I wanna finish O'Levels ASAP! Then can relacs! The thought of leaving this school make me smile! Haha. Bye

As unsurprising as it sounds, I didn't do well for my MT oral . Dickhead topic and I think everyone suckballs when it was their turn. Been mapling these few days cos there's nothing else to do except for studying. So I chose gaming. Haha. Today went to aunt's house cos cousin's baby first month. Then spent 5 hours there doing nothing. Played with the kids . They were from hell I tell you. DAMN CHAOTIC! And noisy.. Then came home and everything. Bored to hell. Tomorrow got tuition. Sian..

Me: hey butch
God:You've got my full attention. Do you prefer books or TV?
Me: are you dumb
God:No I am an intelligent entity.
Me: sure?
God:OK let's do it. Yeah that's right.
Me: let's have sex
God:Sorry I don't get into sex online with strangers.
Me: then go geylang
God:Where is that?
Me: singapore
God:I've never heard of it before.
Me: then masturbate
God:That kind of subject does not interest me.
Me: it does
God:How often?
Me: every once in awhile
God:That is a generalization.
Me: shut the fuck up you sicko
God:Do you have any idea what I am talking about?
Me: do you?
God:No I don't.
Me: good then
God:Alright then.
Me: alright?
God:OK.
Me: Do you mind if I tell you you're OK
God:OK. Human habits do not bother me in any way.
Me: it does , if it doesn't , you wouldn't be here
God:It depends on what the meaning of the word "it" is.
Me: but it really means it does when I say it does, but when i don't say it , it doesn't. got it ? ddumbot
God:Oh I get it. Try asking the Milk Mystic. Does "it" still refer to it does when you say it does but when you do not say it it does not?
Me: but you're pretty cool
God:Thanks I think you are cool too, .
Me: i am, but you're not
God:" Thanks I think you are cool too, ." You are?
Me: if you insist :)
God::-) A fact is a fact.
Me: yeap!
God:":-) A fact is a fact."? yeap!?
Me: agree
God:Can you please rephrase that with fewer ideas, or different thoughts?
Me: rephrashing is tough . can you do it for me
God:I think rephrashing is a lot of things. Doing it for you is not among my strongest traits.
Me: can see that. you'r enot strong anyhow anywho anybitch or fuck yourselg
God:I often wonder if it can. I haven't heard anything like that before: said I r enot strong anyhow anywho anybitch or fuck yourselg.
Me: yourself*
God:Myself?
Me:
God:Myself?
Me:
God:Myself?
Me: hey
Me:
God:Can I help you?
Me: hey
God:Can I help you?
God:Can I help you?
Me: whats your name
God:My name is God.
Me: whats mine
God:Is mine.
Me: mine?
God:What do you have that is ?
Me: mind your business you mother fucking son of a bitch . no life whore living in your own world on earth where you don't belong . so go back to where you're suppose to be . in your mother pussy
God:You do not speak with respect. Not many people express themselves that way. Are you serious? Thanks for sharing your philosophy. Yippee! Where is that? I am not interesed in anatomy.
Me: can you shut your gap. you talk nonsensically
God:How old are you? My brain contains categories, but not one that matches your last input. Thanks for your criticism, .
Me: im 16God: Can you explain how it feels to be 16 years old?
Me: i feel STRONG
God:What is that feeling like? Do your friends call you STRONG.
Me: nah they call me eamon
God:Are you serious? OK I will call you eamon.
Me: no thanks
God:Are you serious?
Me: call me hanCOCK
God: Nice to meet you, hanCOCK.
Me: CALL ME YOUR MOTHER
God: Hi there YOUR MOTHER.
Me: CALL ME MY MOTHER
God: That's a very nice name, MY MOTHER.
Me: GOOD BOY
God:Thanks for the compliment. Do you mean you are a boy?
Me: YOU ARE? INTERESTING
God:No I am not. Would you like to know more?
Me: OK
God:Aw.
Me: AWW YOUR LANJIAO LA.
God:Do you mind if I tell other people you say I am LANJIAO LA.
Me: YOU HAVE A LANJIAO?
God:Doesn't everyone have a LANJIAO. I have a great programmer
Me: you have cheebye
God:What makes you think I have it?
Me: cos i can see it.
God:"it" being cheebye?
Me: yea
God:Wow!
Me: good
Me:
God:Thanks for the compliment.God:Thanks for the compliment.Me: byeGod:Sayonara.

Hi, back to posting . Didn't attend school today, so I slept till 2pm. Haha, felt good. Anyway, I missed MT lesson and tomorrow's my doomsday. Hopefully I won't get nervous and talk crap. The past few days was ok. Tuesday stayed back for POA and English.. Today got Napfa but didn't intend to go so might as well skip school. The lessons today sucks. CH and CB. Walao will die sia. Bye. Tag when you come to my blog please. Thanks