Didn't attend school today. Mum sayed I was hiding from the world. Am I? Well I just know I lied about the headache that gave me the permission to say home and sleep. I was relieved that I didn't had to go to school. But I missed out on Maths and POA. So maybe I really am hiding from the world. Cos I didn't want my classmates to ask "Eh, why you yesterday never go do pullup".. So went to Farfar with godmother and mother to see sinseh. Took MC and went to eat prawn mee. Blabla and home. So I found out that Maths tutorial was cancelled. -.- I didn't want to go school was cos I didn't want to attend tutorial and POA. So I sleep for nothing. Slacked the whole day. People say look into the mirror and say You're good looking and you will be brimming with confidence and look better. I remembered trying it once quite some time ago. I don't think it changed anything. So maybe to certain people it will have effect but to me, nothing happened. Heaven's decision maybe? To let me stay ugly forever.... Tomorrow going for job's briefing. Have to wake up early in the morning. Borrriiiiinnnggg...
You makes me forget alot of things. But when you ignore me, I really feel very empty. So I have to do other things to fill up the emptiness feeling. I have no courage to ask for anything. Maybe I damn humji... I know I wanna ask but no self-confidence.. Argh. Bye