What would..

What would the world be like if I was to sleep and never wake up.
What would happen if I was to confess to you before I breathe my last breath.
I'm having nightmares everyday. Everyday, I die in my sleep. I wake up to be relieved that I'm still breathing. Today, I dreamt that I died and was wondering in my spiritual form. It was scary. I felt everything. It seemed so real for a moment. Only to wake up and see the sun shining on my face. What would you feel if I was to die today. I'm dying.... Day by day, I lose confidence of myself. I feel disgusted of myself. I feel lousy everyday.
And today was not any better. When I saw you didn't reply me but you commented on someone else's post. My heart skipped a beat. I stopped breathing for a moment. Thoughts ran thru my mind in an instant. Everything to me, was black and white. You're on the plane right now going to a faraway place. Without a male by your family side, I can't help but worry about your safety. I know you'll be back in 10days. But it will feel like years before I get to see you again. I want to go to your house. I want to walk you home. I want everything that have got to do with you. )):