I wonder hard, I ponder long. But I still can't think a valid reason. I mean.. People meet people, a month later. They become a couple. Months later, or for some.. Years later. They get tired of each other. Thus, they change to a new person. Is this fun? I have no idea. Haven't been thru it. I mean.. If brothers.. They find a new girl. They just aren't the same brother. They talk about their girls.. They are simply, not themselves. It's boring.. At least for those single.
Thinking.. Searching. Finding a coral in the deep blue sea. A coral beautiful enough, both inside and out, to be kept on the shelf and be kept clean. Every single day, I'll give it a polish. Make sure no dust ever settle upon it. But I don't go scuba diving. So I have yet to find my piece of coral. I'm afraid of the ocean, for sharks lurks in them. I'm not daring enough to go scuba dive for my coral, I'm afraid it might hide, for it doesn't want me.
Have been self-reflecting. Soul-searching. Searching for the person I am. I am a person, not worthy of anyone. For I look down on myself. I dismiss love, I mistreat my friends. I get no respect in return it seems. I dare not think highly of myself, for I have low self-esteem. In my mind, people hate me. For if there's someone who likes me, I get really happy quickly. I have no high expectations, as I'm afraid of its great fall. I'm thinking to myself, thinking alot about myself...
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