I just saw something that pricked my heart. So deep into my heart, it is bleeding as I'm typing now. I also believed in perseverance. But now, I don't believe in nothing. Why can't I find happiness. Must I really wait so long for my first relationship? It really is getting on my nerves. I can't help but see the truth. Know the truth and get hurt so badly. If I have a partner to share my daily ups and downs, it would be nice. But it seems like I won't get there in another year or 2. Tear well in me have dried up, by myself.
Enduring the emotions and holding back tears. Holding them back so much that they've become pesperation. By exercising, the time freezes just a second for me to be myself. My thoughts don't go haywire. But right now , I'm thinking alot. Flashbacks just keeps playing. So many of them, flashing by me. Sweet and bitter memories. But at that moment , just minutes ago, everything came crashing down.
People say, seeing is believing. I saw and I believed. Truth unfold, feelings let go. I can't hold onto that dream anymore. It's time I let it go. Let her go and wish her well, to see her down the aile is a dream I never hope to unveil.
I really wish I can just go back maybe 4 years back. To look carefully. To choose wisely. To be braver and go for her. Then, maybe the one sweet talking with her could be me. Sadly, fairy tales don't happen in real life. Time to stop those kiddish act and march forward for a brighter future.
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