Sometimes it really occurs to me when my dad is gonna stop his really bad habits.
He drinks , smoke and have a really bad temper.
Flares up easily and have alot of zhu peng gou you (bad company)
He drinks oftenly and gets drunk most of the time
But once in awhile, he will get really drunk that he won't even know the way home
And he drives a van. Which makes it worst
Possibiliies: Get caught and fined
: Accident (touch wood)
When he drink and drive my family home, i really wonder, will this be my last ride home?
Will I die just because of my dad's bad habit?
He have lung problems and had been to the operation room once
He was in the hospital for couple of days
I was so worried cause my uncle have died of nose cancer.
Damn, I wished my father would change
Now my studies are beginning to crumble under great pressure
My will to strive have gone.
My will to survive for love one are giving ways to bad things
How much can 1 take before he lay dead
I have not shed a tear since 31December2006
Its a great deal of course.
The last day I cried was cause of my uncle's death
Now I have my father's problems to think about,
Friends to keep up with and my studies to improve on
These three things can keep me busy for a long long time
And with my kind of attitude,
My studies will never be the first thing on my mind
Tution is another way to get good grades.
But with lack of motivation,
I don't think I'm gonna start the tution any time soon
I would wish for a bigger brain, better attitude towards studies and less time to think about pretty girls
Lol.
As my always right mother said: There's no more time to lose.
This is the battle of your life ahead
If you fail, you will regret it in the future.
My mind is in a whirl.
Study or not to study.
Many great people have gone to great heights without education
Is it because of their luck or what
Why must i study in order to go to great heights.
And the subjects I study are a total waste of time
I'm not going to be a historian or a chemist or a english teacher.
Why the fuck am I studying all this
I'm still going to die at the end of the day,
Born in a new place, study the same old things and the cycle repeats forever!
Damn I tired.
Bye